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2:22 [03 Apr 2006|01:07am] Shit....in one month and two days I will be in Tallahassee. Fuck. I will pack her in a suitcase...cause I can't leave my bff behind. 1 Turned them all around//All the dire dreams of men and machines

Finally [20 Feb 2006|10:59pm] 4 more days till I sign my lease in Tally..... it's about time. 3 Turned them all around//All the dire dreams of men and machines

So I go.... [11 Jan 2006|09:47pm] Well, I'm finally putting together the pieces in my head. Its happening. I'm getting out of the one place I was so scared of never leaving. It is really going to happen. When May comes I will be on my way to a new life. It scares me because I dont want to lose some of the things I have here, some of the people. I fear the when I come back, things will be different. I know my leaving is for the better. I will be happy and enjoying life and school. I will learn not to do 7 shots of Jack in 10 minutes because i will be out like a light in 30 minutes. I will learn to do things on my own and get out of my comfort zone. I can see people already detatching themselves from me. I feel kind of alone in a sense. But I am getting through it. I just wonder what Tallahassee holds for me besides hangovers and late nights....I wonder if it is the place i am meant to be. Everytime I go there I dont want to leave....May 9th....I wont be leaving. I will drive only 4 hours, and there I will stay. Its kinda weird to think about.It will be hard for me to leave home and leave friends. I want to see as much of certain people as I can....Amber, Erica, Krys and JV, Cory, Jen, Kelly....and others as well. I want to leave here knowing that when I come back I will still have friends and that they wont forget me. I guess that is my biggest fear. My life is my friends and i fear when i come home they wont remember or care. I dont know what I am feeling right now....just scared. xo 5 Turned them all around//All the dire dreams of men and machines

2005/2006 [03 Jan 2006|01:27am] Well, its a new year with new hopes. One thing has remained constant for the past 8 years.... Thank you for taking care of me when I was drunk,you are the best friend anyone could ask for. The noodles were awesome even though I couldnt eat them cause the ragu was nasty. 1 Turned them all around//All the dire dreams of men and machines

Friday.... [26 Nov 2005|12:50am] Well, what started out as a boring day ended up ok. I went to this awesome(shakes head) partay on Mt.Carmel...saw Justin and Nick then went home. Justin....why were you standing on the corner of 60 and Mt.C? Oh well, FSU plays the Gators today...HOLLA! xoXtina 3 Turned them all around//All the dire dreams of men and machines

[24 Nov 2005|12:41am] The worst feeling in the world is feeling like you are inivisable. I'm such an "outspoken" person that I guess no one thinks that they make me feel that way, but it happens a lot. I'll go to say something and no one responds....I might as well talk to myself. Its pointless for me to care about this but I want someone to actually want to listen to me.This doesnt make much sense....I just want to feel like someone cares about what I say, or cares that I am even around. Sometimes I feel like I could walk out of the room and no one would notice....maybe I'm asking too much. I want out. Out of my current situation. Today I got in a fight with my dad , and tonight my parents got in a huge fight. I just need to get out, go somewhere. I feel like sometimes I am just in this world alone. I dont want to be a burdin on people but I have no one else but my friends, friend to be quite honest. I'm starting to realize that people who are your "friends" dont really give two shits about you. I have one best friend. That is all I need. Everyone else can prove to me that they are my friends. People are just so goddamn fake and shady. I'm going to Tallahassee next weekend. nite.xo 1 Turned them all around//All the dire dreams of men and machines

[24 Oct 2005|12:03am] Well....the past month or so I have been trying to figure out what I want to major in. I've decided to major in Communication Studies and minor in Political Science....then go to Law school. Today sucked. I woke up at 1 then ate pizza all day like a fat ass and now I am on the computer..what's new. well...that is all All the dire dreams of men and machines

mm...k [22 Oct 2005|04:14pm] Leave your name and 1. I'll respond with something random about you. 2. I'll tell you what song/movie reminds me of you. 3. I'll pick a liquor i'd take a shot of with you. (stolen from Brian) 4. I'll say something that only makes sense to you and me. 5. I'll tell you my first/clearest memory of you. 6. I'll tell you what animal you remind me of. 7. I'll ask you something that I've always wondered or liked about you. 8. If I do this for you, you must post this on your journal 9 Turned them all around//All the dire dreams of men and machines

I'm back!!!! [21 Oct 2005|11:38pm] Holla everyone....got my LJ back....go figure. 1 Turned them all around//All the dire dreams of men and machines

[01 Jul 2005|11:39pm] So yea....I miss JV and Krys.....I miss Orlando... Going to see the Killers with Amber for her birfday...should be fun. Can't wait for school to start... Years before LSAT: 2 Years before Law School: 4 Years before I buy myself a Burberry Edition Mercedes:7 I can't wait to make money and live without worrying about bills. I want to move out but I have no money... xoxoXtina 2 Turned them all around//All the dire dreams of men and machines

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